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Copy-pasted on DA because I’m lazy lol

Long time no see guys~ been a while since I visited DA properly lol

Well…I’m here to clear up some things. Some thoughts that has boggled my mind this lately or why I have temporarily stopped visiting DA like how I used to.

Long rants, behold www

Aside from overwhelming exams ( seriously, we only have one week as break for each Try Outs and exam and NO HOLIDAY . Break means we still have full-hour school ) I’m having this thought all over my way of being an artist. I feel like I have no improvement at all. Years have passed, I have known lots of amazing friend ( whether they are an artist or not ) which I’m very grateful of. 3 years in DA makes me happy because I can share my arts and channel my thought, mind, opinion through arts ( because I’m not good in speaking directly lol ) but that thought doesn’t last long, especially this lately. I’ve seen lots of artist in several websites ( not only DA ) and watching them, talking even sharing some opinion over animes, RLs or stuffs. I even watch their arts, always because I admire everyone’s arts. In my opinion, there’s no such thing as bad arts, there’s only mistake to mend in one’s art ( exception for tracing and art thief www ) Then, I’ve realized that most of them are improving greatly. I can’t imagine that some people I know is improving like, whoa, running-in-100km/sec-like pace. It’s wholly different and it’s awesome. I’m happy that they improving, I’m not sad or disappointed in them. What disappointed me is myself. I’ve been gifted by wonderful friends who gave me tablet and constantly reminded me not to give up on my dream. So…why I’m not improving? Why can’t I improve like them? I’ve been talking to my bestfriends and a teacher at school, asking for an advice. They said things like “you have your own pace” or “you can’t compare yourself with others, you have your own way and time to improve”. I know it, I grab what they mean but it’s easier said than done. Plus school is making me crazy. I think I failed my test, no one to blame, I’m the one who didn’t study properly orz. I’m the type that get tired easily, I mean wake up at 4-5 am then got picked up by pick-up service ( Idk how to call it lol ) at 6 and arrived at school 15 minutes later. School starts at 6.30 am and I arrived at home at approximately 4 pm. I spend most of my leisure time by relaxing and sleep if I can. This thought is heavier than school thought I guess, thus I stopped visiting DA regularly ( that, and my PC is semi-broken lol ). I even didn’t tweet on my twitter, I’m more active on Facebook because it’s the safest place or more like my safety zone atm. I know it’s wrong, I know I should keep on moving but my mind think otherwise. It’s so annoying and torturing me.

I’ve been working on two requests that I owed a long time ago. The rest…will be on hold;;; Idk…this thought keep forbidding me to do a full-cg and told me to doodle instead ( hence my tumblr is full of trash orz )

Sorry for the lame stories but I just have to confess how I feel atm. I don’t want people to accept me because of who I am not like before. I try to be myself and this is me lol

School exam will end at 27th March and then we will have try out batch 5 on 2nd April then the last is National exam on 16/17th April. I will see if I can sort out this feeling before that. Still, thanks for your support guys! :heart: I feel very happy amid this difficulties sobs ; w ;

efu99:

ehehehehe ^q^ /runs

WELL YEAH SHOW ME MOAR HAKUSHUU *v*

tenma-:

summerlemon:

 ahhahaahahaha OTL what?

I’m making a giveaway with these 4 stickers which are around 5 and 8cm idek why I’m doing this 

Yeah, okay, the rules:

•You have to like this

•You don’t have to follow me

•But if you want you can

•though I think you won’t 

•You have to reblog this many times

•I know you won’t do this

•But you can if you want. 

 That’s all. 

Oh, yeah, right. The winner will be announced on 18th April o3o 

hey ELI HEY ELI ELI HEY ELI CAN I HAVE ONE

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裏切りはもうだめだった…….

kuyoshita:

Eeeeeh~

REBLOG BECAUSE IT’S MY OTP /likeaboss /Chiisaistopit

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